i’m so tired
i am so fucking tired
its always she and her and sie
ma’am and miss
lady and daughter
woman 
girl
                                                   shit
and it's always the questions
why 
how do you know
literally shut the fuck up
i shouldn’t have to explain myself to you
you know nothing about what goes on in my head 
you dont know me better than i do

    “i never saw you as 
a boy“

youre right
You Never Saw Me
thats the thing
        isnt it

sometimes i want to rip your hair out
but mostly 
    i just want to rip out my own
if i was your son, would it really be that hard for you?
i can promise you,
    saving a life is not that hard
    i do it for myself everyday
but i'm tired
of waiting

so i'll do it for myself:

• i am more your son than your daughter
• i am your brother
• i wish i was your boyfriend
• i am your grandson

with too much love,
your boy